Monday, April 25, 2011

A walk in the park!

It was a beautiful day so perfect for a walk in the park. So I went and saw students running all around with their coach pushing them harder and harder to do better constantly checking the stop clock and noting the time taken to finish the lap around the pond. I cross their path and I ask " You guys working hard haah" and the girls reply " working butts off" LOL.

I walk up to that pond and that bench which is my favorite location to relax and breathe in the fresh air. When I sit there an inexplicable sense of calm surrounds me as if it is like a firewall protecting me from the constant thoughts that are ready to attack my mind :)

So there I sit and just absorb in the beauty of the moment, the peace Nature can bring you.

I sit in the lap of Mother Nature, being protected and cared for!
Closing my eyes, yet so aware of the touch of breeze in my hair
on my skin, swaying my soul like it were a warm peaceful daffodil
my skirt dancing in the wind, with all my love and ready to give!

Hey Mommy, I had this great day at the park
It is so beautiful and I remember you and dad!
You are 10,000 miles away from me right now
My heart is on flight in this wind to where you are...

Oh My Love, I just wish you are here...you are here.................
with me in the lap of Nature......oh yes, you are here................

:)







Tuesday, April 19, 2011

I still love you

You called me when I was in office just to say Hi, How are you! and the conversation went somehow and I referred my crush on you. You were soo surprised and I asked why not? That is how it started! so beautiful so innocent. The sweet sms messages we shared. I loved it when you called me your sweetheart. You found me a home to rent. You gave me silver diyas for my pooja room. It was so much fun looking for a home with you. Soo funny we were talking about the poster with 81 baby pictures on it and wanted 81 children of our own.

Our first hug, our first kiss! Until then I never knew weakness in knees. Hell what! I fell down on my knees at your feet after you kissed me so earnestly! I was overcome with the emotion. Just knowing how much you love me!

I was sleeping with my dilapidated photo album with my family pictures I hold dearest. I dont know when you noticed. The next day when I woke up I had all my photographs neatly arranged in a brand new photo album. How can I ever forget your kindness, your love, your sensitivity and passion? That night in the car - you went down on one knee and asked "Will you marry me?"

As I write, the tears well in my eyes. I was scared, I was so happy, I was uncertain. Hell, I lost you! I gave you hell for the love you gave me. Granted, I was young, foolish, scared about things that could have been easily changed but in retrospect. I wish I had guidance. I wish I never let you go.

It is 6 years! and I still LOVE you. Its okay if you hate me, I still love you.

I imagine, if only..................

Sorry, forgive me,,, words don't come easily! like sorry!!!
Baby can I hold you tonight
Baby if I told you the right words, at the right time - you would be mine!!

The 6th song on the tape is what I asked you to listen to let you know I love you.
Its 6 years now and I imagine, if only...........



Monday, April 11, 2011

Parallel World

Running in the rain with my Dog! in those vast green lush fields. Its just spring and its raining nature's beauty. The different shades of green making the whole world peaceful. So, there I am playing with my Dog. He pulling my long floral green skirt to play more and more :) Just bringing laughter and joy. It is the quiet moment just between me and my best friend. Beautiful!!!!!

Simple things, simple joys forming part of my Parallel world!
Those intimate moments in my mind, my private treasure!
Dear Someone-Special - I so wish, with you I share!


Cheerios
Vani :)

PS: I feel like I am trying hard to write an essay for my 3rd standard topic LOL :)

Sunday, April 10, 2011

Simple Sunday

Wow, the bloggers block is so sickening. Earlier my fingers would do Salsa and Tango on the keyboard. Now, I really have to seriously make my fingers to even get up and walk.
With this the walk starts........

Mind is infested with thoughts
But no words on the lips..

The things that are put in words
were never in thoughts..

So much pretense
Elsewhere is the presence.

I just wish I was there.

Cheerios
Vani :)